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fuck yes logans 21, and he is letting me take him out fuck fuck fuck yes!!!! actually i got like 7 of my bodies staying at my place, and were gonna celebrate it with sake, soju, shit faces and fucking whatever else, because none of us will be a designated driver, so fuck!!! my place is big enough drink till we puke and then some rofl.

in a nut shell

i never post anything to much about my life, i forgot top mention anime south my first small con...it sucked horribly, really horribly, so small >.<....i met a lot of people some stupid asian chick who was like 16 tried to hit on me and then got disgusted by my arm, fucken stupid underage kids.....anyways it was the first time i played rock band and im fucken addicted like a baby is to a nice set of tits!!!! well anyways we met this one girl named amber, she likes me, i hate her she is annoying and now that she found my friend mike i am saved from the abomination that is a stupid woman.I got a hand crafted reverse blade cost me my leg, cuz its bigger than my arm rofl. Not only that i got a few other great things. I gotta admit i had fun playing with the soft breasted hentai dolls those things are so fucking awesome. the breasts are all weird >.>..and soft.....hahaha. well the day we left to go back home we got lost damn mike took the long way and spent 4 hrs to get back home when it should of been a fucking hour.

anyways my life hasnt been to big a few party here there and i forget a lot of shit i do anyways. ive never been shit drunk, but i have been buzzed, hanging out at my eem ohs was also bad ass, i got to shoot pistols party with my younger cousin and got lots of shit. but i am looking forward to the upcoming bday of logans and oh shit!!!!im almost 20 one more fucking yr >.< one more fucking yr >.<...!!!!!!!!!!ill be 21 finnaly rofl ill add more theres lot to talk about hahaha

im still sore from judo fucken old perverted japanese men >.>.....well i got an hour before it starts and imma stop the bitching and say this shit.

well ive thought about it and melted on it and shat on it and fucked on it and slept on it and dreamed on it and died on it. Its about time i stop my life, with that said im headed to new orleans over the spring break to help the less fortunate, all those people who lost everything, they need a mibiru in their life to show their darkness to the light. Ive usually been a helpful person but now i want to do it on a larger scale,

We will start with building houses and etc, cleaning shit and other stuff, its free i dont get paid but food!!!!!!!!!!!!!! food is free and the happy faces, thats the only shit i care about. I dont need to be wreathing around in my own sorrow and torment...(which is gone now) there are others with problems and i want to help them!!

hhhmmm ive been thinking i may start writing a book about my life, my past the people ive met, and some insight to help others over come obstacles and stuff...i may be young but as i grow and write the book im sure ittl turn out perfectly great!!! i think id call it i dont fucking know id call it something. I would leave out the bull shit, cus like a sailor and go to the hard cold truth. No one needs that snoody soft shit that everyone rights im going to go hardcore into this shit XD.


umm ummm, japan i may go i dont know anymore?!?!? i feel like shit, i promised tiffani id help her, but its japan...><...memories with munchkin dongseng i guess would be better....plus i am her beatable teddy bear for that con bullshit that always goes on.....japan will come by again....but her happiness may not.....so japan is postponed....

ok first day of judo started a guy pucked his fucking guts out, i managed to do pretty well, except for the fact we had to do freaking 50 judo push ups.... i am amazed at myself that i could even do that fucking many, plus with screwing it up by not following the count i probobly added on 10 more. *sqwee* my ego rises more now that this cute white chick checked me out when i had my shirt off....my six pack is a lot more tone and my chest is fuller due to weight lifting and stuffs..... she was looking so hard that i waved to break her concentration can we say embarassed as hell. My neck though hurts like a bitch, having to do bridges using my head kinda sucked but for the better!!!!!

the judo instroctor bobby fukashima, makes fun of men who wear shirts under their gi's hahaha rofl hes an awesome teacher, truly asian with all his sexual innuendos.

i found a great love with fall out 3 but i gotta keep myself from killing everything, im playing on the hard mode setting and ammo is hard as shit to come by its pissing me off.....all the running away and hit and runs im having to fucking pull. I fucked up the first town your suppose to go to i felt bad cuz everyone in that town hates my guts hahaha. but i finnaly got the rock-it-launcher and some other gizmos to work with why shoot someone when you can blow there ass to bits, plus its fun to dismember the bodies.

last remnant i got earlier yesterday to and i havent tried it out yet though i can say it looks like a really fun game.

ok i cant sleep so im blogging bitches, music is starting to come back into my life, im getting pretty brilliant with the piano, and i got a new 12 string guitar....

kendo, i will be one dan at the end of the month, talk about cramming and learning, but i want to do tournament fighting and my sensei decided since im powerful enough and fast enough he will train me and drill me to a one dan memorization is nothing and the katas are nothing of impossible. Im so glad he decided to do that, and my mom is helpful i just got my hakama and my keikogi and its freaking awesome its double layered cost me 300 bucks hand stitched imported from japan. my shinai is 80 bucks i got three of them and they are from japan, high grade hard enough i could kill someone with these. My bogu will arrive in bout 7 more days...... high anticipation my sensei is sandan rank and hes a bad ass though. Judo i can do tournaments but it will be in 2 months when i get my brown belt.

my tenegui says love the sword like you love your life in kanji. I take my martial arts seriouse and kendo is a great sport, i want to further progress and start taking iaido to. We will learn kenjutsu with this kendo class so i dont have to worry bout that either. Anything that deals with fighting i seem to excel at i wonder how how in the ranks i can get?


next thing iwanna talk aobut is my motorcycle i can finnaly get one and with my financial aid im oked to get one!!!! i was thiknig bout getting a hayabusa im not crazy and shit so im sure i wont wreck im also pretty careful with what i do so i should be ok, ittl save gas going to and from classes and think of all the fucking joy riding i can do!!!!! hell fuck yeah!!!!!!

ok i cant do the smoking thing, im not even addicted and now my mouth taste all funny, so oh well, ill just stick to drinking XP. im at a friends house rofl im never home anymore, its to boring and its fun to be around with friends. and hooohhhh shit its logans 21st bday in bout 3 days....time to get drunk as fuck!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i dont wanna remember my fucking name by the time im done. Well anyways im starting to get a more positive outlook on life now that i dont care about a sexual or relationship life.

but i do got to say there is this 24 yr old girl that seems to really captivate me. Shes smart beautiful as hell!!! and her nagging and bitching does not get annoying for some reason hahaha. She hates that i drink though xp but eeehhh cant help it im not an angry drunk im an exrtemely fun drunk shesheshe.

i might be going to sakura con, but then again luka and some others want me at ax...i might try to go to both XD rofl. eehhh

theres this other chick i sorta like to but shes just all weird shes 22 and i think on a higher level than me........*sigh*

dammit i wanna stay single and i like peaople fuck shit

i beleive in the all so not so mighty, the stuff of only dreams...the things that make people happy, and really all the great tasting food this world has to offer....and the ability to sing and make others feel happy...XP...the ability to show how messed up this world is.....and to make it easier for those who do.....

well ima trying to change my page before i go to sleep but stupid beta thing isn working at all >.<........it pissing me of <(>.<)>.....

anyways...im up...and tiffani not on and im sad. i atleast wanted to say night night one more time before i fell back asleep but i guess that not happening anytime soon...

well i added some new song/ poetry and i seem to be getting better at this shit...XD



All I see are the sighs of silent faces
The broken dreams reflected from light
Open arms reaching out to no one
The heart trying to make itself whole again.

But in these times its easier to just say goodnight
To escape the horror that we see inside the mirror
To a dream that is all to familiar

Happiness, love, power, hope, serenity.

Open eyes grasping the horizon of the picture frame
Broken lies scattered across a vast sea of glass
Scars hidden beneath what we call the smile
The life, something made to just throw away

it not done yet...but alot of my stuff isnt done yet...cuz i always try to make it better and longer than how its suppose to be....cuz i know i suck and i want to get better....but that takes to so XP....


well my ax cos plays havent gone anywhere...and for Sakura Con i cant really say much i unno if im going this year...last year my miyavi got mobbed and raped...this year i hope to do a bit better with my vers miyavi...the only bitch part will be the hair.....>.<....but ima do my vers miyavi and see how it goes and see what i need to improve....he is 75% complete...i need my tote bag...the glasses...the hair length...the hat...i want brighter calf high chucks.....and a few other addons to make it spaz out in the light....

oresama might not make it to Sakura con....but it should be out for AX...so see people there...

oie...i need more friends...tiffani..you should make people read my page..it gets kinda lonely....

watah.....anyways...im tired and ima sleep.....ill start writing and adding more maybe showing off a bit of the myv sama for the fans just a glimpse of what it gonna look like XD.....okie okie....anyoung....uummm tai tien...and i unno goodnight in jap...something mash.... peace XD

naaa nanananananaaaa nanananaaaaaaa na nananananaaaa na na nanananaaaaa katamari damacy.....wooo...that game was so addicting....anyways...im bored...and i just posting well

my cos play comes as followed

miyavi- oresama vers.
miyavi- my vers....cant tell you how it will look so....gotta wait till then...it is..40% complete
kimimaro- shinobi tenchu vers. so far it is only 10% complete
kamen rider- kick hopper street form...havent started yet XDDDD....
and so far thats all i have oh and zero...normal vers...but thats bout it...

so anyways here i am and i am tired doubt there is anyone reading this or anyone going to be reading this but hey.....whats the fun of not posting things when you can XDDD anyways...yeah ok im done...i unno wha to put except things for ax...but tiffani already summarized that in her own...so yeah.............................................................................................hokay......well im getting a rain song guitar soon...ive gotten a lot better at the guitar and i start college really really soon...poo

i need more friends...v v...anyways.....today wash fun....i got taken down by this really fat guy.....and then.....i got mah contacts im so happy...XDDD....i have a few things on mind to...but...eh...i guess it best to keep to mah self...more poetry soon neh??? cuz the others suck like hell

walking through the land,
a world of golden sand,
the paintings of life before my eyes.

i saw you standing there,
with sigh and silent stare,
what reason's do you cry..

a crimson rose, dyed black by loss of blood.
in this land, all seem to come and go.

blood red rose,
why do you run away.

blood red rose,
what reasons do you try,
to kill your life...

washed by love's own tear,
the roses cry i hear,
as the spiders web weaves words of lies.

a bird comes swooping down,
to give its wings away.
fly into the sky

take the wings, and run away from here,
blod sweat and tears, this dessert drowns in grey.

as the rose begins to dry,
all your tears why do you cry??
if you are sad..
il help you end this life,
but every chance,
why do you run away??

im just trying to find the will to live,
trying not to let my heart get the best of me..

the winds of time,
why do you erode my walls??
ive tried my best,
to make them tall..
my heart is calling out for me,
my life is spiraling down.

if i am sleep please wake me...
but if its all real, then just kil me....

open your eyes to the truth,
and make this world one big lie,
slice them all with the blade,
and rip a hole in the belly of the earth,

in the light by the window.....
sits a little tiny bird,
its feathers frilled, 
its beak hollow,
as it sings out a merry tune.

"wait wait, and burn your time
cuz love soon you will find"

the bird swoops off the window,
to only be killed by  a moving car,
laying down, coming close to end.
the bird makes one more try,
to sing a song of deadly doubt.

"but wait you will and time will show,
that in the end of it all, all will love and all will go"

so i sit and i wait for nothing more to happen,
i sleep and i think  of love and nothing more,
i dream and i wish for something blue,
or for my world to be colored in a new hue.